The hand that never backs down

How i wish i could turn back the time right now. Where i just sitin my room staring at my math books and history and as well drawing cartoons with my account papers. That was high school life back there, and text messaging her at the same time while day dreaming. Once in a while we would text message each other in tuition class. How numb we can get sometimes. But i guess it was just a way that we would be or acted at that period of time.

Hell i wish i could be just sittin next to her and watch tvb series once in a while. I dont really understand most of the show or their hongkie language, i still do know that i am a chi guy. The funny thing is, i dont understand every sentence of it or the meaning in it but somehow i like their actions and reactions. Their facial expressions can tell alot from there.

I wouldnt say that i am totally good in my math. But i was tryin hard and i did stress myself every night in doin it. Hell even add math was a fav but i bailed out in exam. For a reason i bailed..Its freakin ass HARD! I know...i know imma lazy ass bum. But i did it fo a purpose, fo a goal and fo something i want to persue in life and not being somebody as useless as it may seemed.

Time is just moving forward and never back it up, might as well i just cont doin in what im good at. Perhaps..in the near future..

Runnin on WOAT!

How long has it been that i have not been touching this blog and how long of a month had i not type anything into it, nor tellin any stories of it. Its kinda hard to say as things were so buy and i recieved remakrs telling me that imma busy guy. Hell! i aint no busy guy, but i tend to do my thigns a lil slow and not speedin it up, that is how busy i had been.

Well there's lotta reasons im outta the scene and not makin any noise or any sound. Met an accident, go on field trips with my mates and gettin myself ready fo IELTS. That is something new. English course, it aint a course like hw we would take in high school or college. Instead, this goes internationally. Fuckin A dude..hahhahaa..

Gyming was good. Releasing some of the pressure i just need to get it out. Anger...im tellin ya the sweat that drips from yer head to chin, now that is adrenaline. Im liking it much. Progress, well im gettin the hand of it and still maintining my weight, but i building mass baby. Mass on.

Its bout to rain heavy rain, and its gotta be worse than cat n dogs. Hopefully it aint raining cow dungs. So, peace out before i hit the thunder.

Being blind

My eyes are swollen up..well not from being beat at or wert..but my eyes were like KickAss..Dope.

Like an annoyin fly

Sometimes i have been thinkin by myself, am i that annoyin sometimes. Or was i that annoyin to people or should i even say that i have that kinda pleasent look that peeps dont really wanna say it infront of my face that.." Hey des...you're one hell of a fuckin annoyinn shit!" ya'll can say so that i been thinkin hell lotta things. But i cant really sto myself from thinkin that much. Too much time? Nah...aint bout that as well. Sittin down and start thinkin...we all be thinkin hell loads.

Replacements

What i didnt know or realise was...perhaps i was a replacement. As i stood there n be there. And be the one that could have supported the idea and being a shoulder to cry on or hang on. I guess after all these thinking and figuring out, maybe i was a replacement.