Flashback

I came back and i read my blog, as i was chattin on skype and it was an awesome one that i had. But after doin so, scrolling and rolling..i read all my blog post, it was ridiculious but was fun on the other hand. Yea, i still cant believe that nobody actually still hooked onto my blog fo some reasons. My friends actually told me that cause i aint a chick so yea..that's why there are no readers or followers hooked on.

As i was sayin, it was funny to see what i wrote, my rantings, my complains, my agony and pain that i share wit ya'll and as well as mentioning that particuliar person in my life for the past 5years and gwad dammit. I am done wit it and i shall not mention bout it at any circumstances. But yea, i do wish to see something progress here and so on. I think i will update my day and how horrificly pathetic i am to actually have the time to write and change some themes or perhaps a new banner for my blog.

Bliss memories

There were things i hate bout you...i really hate it when i see you with another guy...i hate it when you were not there to find me anymore. I hate it that you always think that i was not there, I hate it when you said that you knew something bout me but the fact is that you dont know shit nothing bout me. How..or who when where..would you come up with the idea that you're gonna know shit on me?!

Hell no! A lil persuasion from ya would be that hard? I waited fo lik 2years...and still there aint any changes. What didnt change was you were in the car with me and you still change the channels on the radio, which is what i liked bout you on that. But i guess its all gone by now, therefore it is no more. How cruel can it be in life that it was just gone within a blink or just within these 5years.

If only i could write a symphony or a simple song that could express my heartfelt feelings or what would be in my head now. And with that you can understand how things has been fo me. I assume that you wouldnt bother bout it or dont even care what it was or how i be right now. I know its dumb to think bout it now or even mention it all over again. But it never ends or it never been killed. Its kept withing an far in a vault only i myself would know.Not even friends or the close ones knew.

Crazed out!

I may not be as good as other bloggers or so on, but i guess i could use the blog as something fo me to express some shit out or just to get my systems goin on during the nocturnal time. Such godly hours really kills and tortures. Who know we maybe so blurred out we tend to see things we dont wanna see. Just joking...if you have that ability..hmmm...its better off not to know anything or just be norm.

Being all paranormal or normal or non normal, we all do have our sides of dark n light.

The hand that never backs down

How i wish i could turn back the time right now. Where i just sitin my room staring at my math books and history and as well drawing cartoons with my account papers. That was high school life back there, and text messaging her at the same time while day dreaming. Once in a while we would text message each other in tuition class. How numb we can get sometimes. But i guess it was just a way that we would be or acted at that period of time.

Hell i wish i could be just sittin next to her and watch tvb series once in a while. I dont really understand most of the show or their hongkie language, i still do know that i am a chi guy. The funny thing is, i dont understand every sentence of it or the meaning in it but somehow i like their actions and reactions. Their facial expressions can tell alot from there.

I wouldnt say that i am totally good in my math. But i was tryin hard and i did stress myself every night in doin it. Hell even add math was a fav but i bailed out in exam. For a reason i bailed..Its freakin ass HARD! I know...i know imma lazy ass bum. But i did it fo a purpose, fo a goal and fo something i want to persue in life and not being somebody as useless as it may seemed.

Time is just moving forward and never back it up, might as well i just cont doin in what im good at. Perhaps..in the near future..

Runnin on WOAT!

How long has it been that i have not been touching this blog and how long of a month had i not type anything into it, nor tellin any stories of it. Its kinda hard to say as things were so buy and i recieved remakrs telling me that imma busy guy. Hell! i aint no busy guy, but i tend to do my thigns a lil slow and not speedin it up, that is how busy i had been.

Well there's lotta reasons im outta the scene and not makin any noise or any sound. Met an accident, go on field trips with my mates and gettin myself ready fo IELTS. That is something new. English course, it aint a course like hw we would take in high school or college. Instead, this goes internationally. Fuckin A dude..hahhahaa..

Gyming was good. Releasing some of the pressure i just need to get it out. Anger...im tellin ya the sweat that drips from yer head to chin, now that is adrenaline. Im liking it much. Progress, well im gettin the hand of it and still maintining my weight, but i building mass baby. Mass on.

Its bout to rain heavy rain, and its gotta be worse than cat n dogs. Hopefully it aint raining cow dungs. So, peace out before i hit the thunder.

Being blind

My eyes are swollen up..well not from being beat at or wert..but my eyes were like KickAss..Dope.

Like an annoyin fly

Sometimes i have been thinkin by myself, am i that annoyin sometimes. Or was i that annoyin to people or should i even say that i have that kinda pleasent look that peeps dont really wanna say it infront of my face that.." Hey des...you're one hell of a fuckin annoyinn shit!" ya'll can say so that i been thinkin hell lotta things. But i cant really sto myself from thinkin that much. Too much time? Nah...aint bout that as well. Sittin down and start thinkin...we all be thinkin hell loads.